Burnt Out

My doctor told me to try and eat 6 small meals during the day. I can’t even sit 6 times a day, let alone remember to eat.

I am starting to question my career as a teacher. Isn’t that terrible? After 10 years I am beginning to dread the walk down the hallway to my classroom, I dread staff meetings and I am losing my connection with my students. My job satisfaction is at an all time low and I feel burnt out. Are there any other teachers out there that have felt this way and overcome the throb of discontent? How can I possibly make it another 15 years? Where do I look to find that spark?

I am tired of being misunderstood and under-appreciated (I actually had a student say she hated me under her breath the other day, and that NEVER happens to me…ever) I am tired of thinking that education is headed down the shitter and I am just along for the ride. I am tired of fearing I will be laid off because of budget cuts and the lack of community support of education.

No one takes into consideration that I take on the confessions of the suicidal teens, run 2 after school clubs (without pay), fight for the equality of all my students, take on the special education students without assistance, facilitate my students entering  and winning contests, participate in community projects, serve on the committee for underachieving and at-risk students, give up my plans to conduct independent studies and carry the whole department on my shoulders.

Eat? Who has time to eat?

Today I had yogurt and blueberries, half of a protein bar, an apple and MCB snack attack and dinner. Is 4 our of 6 good enough? I took my metformin yesterday and tried to drink more water today.

 

(I teach art, this is a project we did last year. Can you believe they didn’t like this one? I can’t win!)

 

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Snacks

We had left-over Coq Au Vin for dinner, so I have no new recipes. But I can tell you what my go-to snack is.

 

I am a teacher, which generally means I eat and pee on a bell schedule. I need to be up, dressed, functioning and at school before 7 am. I am not a morning person, and no matter how hard I try to rewire the system I just can’t seem to manage. Ever since I was in high school I get a twinge of morning sickness (maybe PCOS related?) so I generally shy away from breakfast. So my mornings look like a mad rush and a quickly made espresso shoved into a travel mug.

When I finally do get a chance to eat something there are usually at least 3 or 4 students in my room…ALWAYS. So I never have a chance during the day to sit down to a proper meal. But stuffed in my desk drawer is my pre-made snack bag, and I manage to munch on that whenever I get a chance. Nuts have been shown to actually help with PCOS and they are high in protein so they made the perfect snack for that satiated feeling.

Mrs. Clemmerbottom’s Snack Attack:

1 cup raw almonds

1 cup raw walnuts

1 cup raw pecans

2 cups roasted and salted pumpkin seeds (the green ones)

1 cup sunflower seeds

1/2 cup peanuts or cashews

1 package of Craisins or raisins,

1 package of dried apples or dried cherries.

So I just put them all into a big ziplock bag and have it ready at all times.

Occasionally I will have the foresight to bring something to eat, or if I squeeze my way between the giant hulks of teenage lunch-eaters I can find a salad. But most of the time I can’t be bothered and this at least can get me through the majority of my day.