My doctor told me to try and eat 6 small meals during the day. I can’t even sit 6 times a day, let alone remember to eat.
I am starting to question my career as a teacher. Isn’t that terrible? After 10 years I am beginning to dread the walk down the hallway to my classroom, I dread staff meetings and I am losing my connection with my students. My job satisfaction is at an all time low and I feel burnt out. Are there any other teachers out there that have felt this way and overcome the throb of discontent? How can I possibly make it another 15 years? Where do I look to find that spark?
I am tired of being misunderstood and under-appreciated (I actually had a student say she hated me under her breath the other day, and that NEVER happens to me…ever) I am tired of thinking that education is headed down the shitter and I am just along for the ride. I am tired of fearing I will be laid off because of budget cuts and the lack of community support of education.
No one takes into consideration that I take on the confessions of the suicidal teens, run 2 after school clubs (without pay), fight for the equality of all my students, take on the special education students without assistance, facilitate my students entering and winning contests, participate in community projects, serve on the committee for underachieving and at-risk students, give up my plans to conduct independent studies and carry the whole department on my shoulders.
Eat? Who has time to eat?
Today I had yogurt and blueberries, half of a protein bar, an apple and MCB snack attack and dinner. Is 4 our of 6 good enough? I took my metformin yesterday and tried to drink more water today.
(I teach art, this is a project we did last year. Can you believe they didn’t like this one? I can’t win!)